Shackles

My heart stops the moment I realised that you’re so much bigger than me

Sinking under the weight of all those responsibilities

My, my, my how do you swim?

How can I compare the width of your shoulders to mine, they seem so puny

How can I share my burdens and my fears?

My, my, my how do you sleep?

Though you love me now, I can’t help but think that I’m not worthy

I can’t begin to imagine drying all your tears.

My, my, my, how do you live?

I’m so sorry my dear but I cannot help you lift your wings,

They are held down by things much bigger than I’ll ever be

I’m so sorry I said all those things without knowing why

Sometimes life gives us no choices but I cannot give up mine. 

Difference between current and desires states.

Oh, but for a moment of clarity.
To see the clouds part.
To stand under the bright sun.

Oh, let the light stream through me.
Illuminate the desires,
I know naught of.

Oh, may the murky waters part.
Reveal the riverbed.
All the sunken trinkets.

Oh, but my dreams only fade.
The waters churn grey.
The clouds grow dark.

Dear little porcelain doll
Won't you look in the mirror?
And tell me how your skin glows.

Your midnight hair
Your cerulean eyes.
God I hate your perfect curls.

Write down your thoughts
What fills that empty head?
The word 'obedience' on blank paper.
Your glass eyes stare ahead.
Better not to think instead.

They might drag me away
But you'll just sit and stare
On the mantelpiece, above the fire
In that little dress you wear.