Game Start

Back rolls the confusion.

The surface always looks different from really inside.

What are you? Not in the sense, define your species, but, what are you to me?
I'm just confused.

Contradicting needs, wants, what should I do? Taken on a rollercoaster ride that didnt leave the room.

What are you trying to do? Not physical manipulation either, though that itself is confusing enough in another sense. Trying to establish emotional attatchment? Why? Why me?

There are endless questions that I cannot ask, will not ask. Because I'm just enjoying this sightless ride too goddam much. Never look a gifted horse in the mouth.

Trust. There can never be friendship, love, reliance without trust. And it's something lacking from us. I dont know what you are trying to do, and I dont trust you enough to blind myself. The fact is that not all intentions may be noble. I might just be paranoid, but you never know. Better guarded then staying there like a sitting duck waiitng to be stabbed through.

What to make of all this? I have no idea, and none of my trustworthy advisors have a clue. I know so little about you. There some things I dont want to know. Perhaps it may not be a big deal to you, but it is to me. Maybe this is normal for you, but it is abnormal to me.

But there is time, there is always time, for now. Time to sift through what scant information I have, reinforce the icy wall around my heart, thicken it's boundaries, the wall built to keep you out and my warmth in. Try it, pick at it as much as you want, but you wont get through.

And if, worse comes to worst, or, all my doubts are true, then i'd simply walk away from this all. There must not be a weakness. It is all really a game isn't it? Of cat and mice, where you think you are the cat, in control, hunting. But no, should you really intend to crush me within your jaws, you'd find more than a mouse there. And I'd simple walk away.

And I won't let you get the upper hand

And I wont fail, wont fall...

Won't break that wall...

I hope.