Lake of Sighs

Your love. Have I broken it?
The dreams, the fantasies
Have I shattered them?
I didn't mean to.

I'm lost. You say you're empty
But nothing is able to sew
These seams back together.
How come?
What has been lost
And remain unrecoverable?

I saw my temper flare, and I saw it's petals singe you.
I'm sorry.
Why? So many things, only one thing.
I don't know yet again. Forgive me.
I hope it's too late.
So there would be no going back
When circumstances should force me to move on
I'll be ready.

I think at the bottom of all this
None of us really know what we want
What we're willing to give to acheive it
And what we expect to get back.
Expectations > reality > effort
It's always been this way and always will be
Don't expect the world for a grain of rice.

I admire you.
I pity you.
I adore you.
I value you.
I trust you.
I care for you
I want to protect you.
I am scared for you.
But I don't love you.
Understand. Please. Please...

Understand me.