Contradiction

Believe me when I say I dream and I too hope it'd be real...Who doesn't wish for a happy ending? But how many before had fallen... Just as this dream will eventually.

Don't be angry when your clouds crumble to dust... When there's no silver lining. Some things are just meant to be the way they are... You can't change everything.

Believe me that I don't want to apologize... but still, I must say I'm sorry. Every time all I could see is her face... Obscuring everything you've stood for.

And just as this association will no doubt harm you... There's no way I can shed so many years of history. Just as this dissociation harms her... no doubt you'd know better than I.

When all is said, there are still two sides to the coin
One that attracts, one that repulses
Two poles attached to one entity
Of which I cannot but be attracted to
And at the same time, pushes me back
When all that I stand for and against
Are contained in one body.

How can this contradiction be so natural?