Thought of the Day

What to do, to not feel left behind?

But it's me who's skipping ahead on top of the warm brick wall.

Arm's out wide and hopes towards the dusk touched sky.

It's funny how you can be left behind so easily while being in front.

It's funny how I can feel lost when I'm surrounded by those who guide me.

Fly, it's not a desire to be free.

Just wanting to get away from it all this time.

Oh yeah I was with a crowd of people before, seemed like long ago.

They are all dear to me, casting the plaster for a perfect life,

Giving me the excuse to run, to hide, somewhere to seek out shelter.

Why the hell am I running away in the first place?

No, why the hell am I running away from something I don't wnat to part with.

Or why I feel like it's running away rather than just drifting apart from disinterest.

Laugh, cry, move along now, there's nothing to see here.

Brush it off for now, think about it later, laugh, make a joke, keep walking ahead.

Because when I'm ahead, only the back can be seen.

The part where there is no emotion, no will, no dreams.

Only the indication of my presence.

And sometimes, that's all I want to be seen.

Before I know it, they'd been swept along an invisible tide called time,

Before I know it, I'd been left behind, infront.
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Happy birthday Elaine <3

Legal now ;D so old!

party on the train. WOOOOOOT

one day bec and joseph will gang up on me and kill me ^^;

& i really need to get awayyy from them before that happens

Maybe should stop teasing??

NAAH, its worth getting killed for LOL

I've tried EVERY cake in cake world now

*is proud* =DD

Went cloud gazing yesterday, and mowed crop circles in my lawn

Yeaaah, got no work done either.

Still, it's been ages since i went to the park and just .. stared. But c'mon it was after maths test

Oh yea, maths none calculator thing tomorrow. dang.

Should i revise stuff? If i do i know i needa revise coodinate geometry.

SIIIIIIGH just kill me now.

Actually no i love my life.

I've become very good at monologues since....

CUBA CUBA CUBA i reckon che guevara was pretty hot when he was young.

NSB water polo teams xDDD pasty

"you fantasize alot"<-- certainly, but not about the things you think i'm fantasizing about.

A weeeeeeek. then assessments OVER =D and i can sleep again.

Talking to ppl alot. It feels good, heart to heart, D&M wateva u wanna call it.

I feel loved.

Never know who likes who blah blah anymore in my group.

Even more clueless about the guys. These people i've known since year 7.

Kinda weird actually, that they should know about them more than i do.

But i guess it's cuz i never made te effort, nor was i concerned with it at all.

So out of it these days, preoccupied, lost in thought etc etc but about WHAT?

Really should'nt act all possessive. Cant help it? *shrug* only time will tell if this has all been in vain... in which case i will bash something/someone. (who?)

Will cease my incessant rambling now.

-Blood